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February 22, 2006
Self portrait Tuesday: All of Me
live in freedom
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This is by no means a flaw, but I have married a very adventurous man, one who cannot be nailed down to one place for too long. Part of me wants to stay and be sedintary for the rest of my life, the other part realizes that I have had some of the best experiences of my life because Joel has big dreams, big plans. Just when I am starting to feel blahhh and bored, like my life is not going anywhere unless I shove myself forward with lead feet, Joel expresses an idea and off we go into dreamland!
Joel told me a few months ago that he made a promise to himself that he wanted to live in a beautiful place and Joel has determined that Atlanta is not a beautiful place. Sorry, the Aquarium is cool, the High is pretty and white but Joel needs the outdoors and the culture all in one. And I have to say that I do to. So with all our wildest dreams we make tentative plans, plans to go somewhere beautiful. No it's not Boise even though it's sad to see the Perkins go without us right behind them.
We are driven by a desire to serve God where He wants us. Since we've been in Atlanta we've had trouble finding a church that we can grow with. We did however meet and grow to love the Maurer family and have realized more of their potential since they left to go to Pasedena. Ahhh, California. We want to go there. Yes, yes, there are many downsides. But as far as I know, we have to do something because I cannot will myself to be happy. I don't feel these things first, Joel does and he comes up with an idea that brings our family's plans to a higher place, a place that throws logic out the window sometimes. We of course talk like things are already happening, even though we have so much to do before then.
We are examining the transitions and what would be best for our family. Talks of fixing the house, home equity loans, full time school for Joel, part time work for me, and moving to a transitional place. This will be hard and fun. But we are determined to do it because we cannot just sit in a lukewarm apathy waiting for life to happen.
All the beautiful projects in the world will not fulfill the purposes God has for me and our family. Most of all I think of my children. I want Josiah and Eden to have a church experience, a experiecnce with a good group of kids that they will remember. I want them to have ample opportunities to meet Jesus all around them. They can't do that in our current situation. Friends are far away and we meet only occasionally. I want the ability to homeschool and I can't do that without a support group. And I don't have that now. Believe me, we tried and we do not let moss grow where there should be movement. I can't say that I am the most tuned in person to The Kingdom of God, but I do know that those of the Spirit go where He leads.
Slowly but surely we will go...
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Logic was never in my window to be thrown out after marrying Jon....we welcome and desire to have you be a part of our CRAZY and incredible journey in the next years...pack your bags! We cannot explain the excitement in our hearts as your family is praying about joining us!
Posted by: kate at March 4, 2006 11:15 PM
Wow. Big news. My hub and I have experience wanderlust in the past- even going as far as ordering relocation packages from states we were interested in. But 13 years later we are still in the same house. We are planning to move at the end of the year and are in discussion now about building a home in a planned community featuring small businesses...you have a first floor shop and live above- like long ago :) We won't have a shop but we will have an art studio.
ps- Thanks for the lovely hearts :)
Posted by: Mim at February 24, 2006 6:00 AM
I agree with you...I feel the same way about where I live, I long to be where it's beautiful and there is a community where I can grow with my family.
I wish you all the best.
Posted by: Carla at February 22, 2006 2:23 PM
i went to college in santa barbara for 2 years. i understand that nothing looks beautiful after living in such a place. on the other hand, i came back home because i missed the seasons and the green.
Posted by: tacyjane at February 22, 2006 11:32 AM
