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May 23, 2006
Family Ties
Lola Nancy and Grandpa Dale are in town from the Phillipines. We spent Saturday with them, Oma, Big Papa, Amy and Josh.
Tonight we go to cousin Christy's wedding, married on a Monday! Any other non-Saturday weddings out there? Anyway, I'm in a zoned out state trying to prepare for an evening of nice clothes and food, and music and keeping kids in line--along with planning for a 5 hour trip from ATL to LAX. Ugh, Joel keeps reminding me that it's planning for fun. Yep, you're right, it will be great great fun, I just want to arrive there. This in between stuff is not my favorite part. I'm the Mama, the one who packs everyone, dresses everyone, feeds everyone. While we are away from our house, makes sure that nothing falls apart, dies, smells, grows, whatever could happen. I don't like the idea of coming home to a filthy house, but sitting right now seems better. Cleaning at 10pm seems easier since my son should be napping and instead is dropping every last book he owns between his bed and the wall *Boom* *Boom*.
On Sunday before I went to clean Venture PT, Jon Maurer called. My stomach got butterflies as he and Joel talked about getting together and what day we should go to Santa Barbara. Man, my faith is small. As I vacuumed I kept thinking of all my "wants" and all the little things we have to pay off. I am glad they are just little. My heart waits with anticipation to see how God will work. Will it be harder than hard, will he bring financial blessing, will it be soon or in two or more years? Most importantly, will it happen at all. My human heart always has that doubt, that what I am feeling (or what Joel is feeling) is actually just our selfish desires. I feel the same way about where we will live, what we will drive, where my children will go to school. When I express my small faith, Joel says, "Don't say that!" Joel's faith is bigger than mine. His dreams are bigger than mine.
But California on vacation is a beautiful dream, one of sunshine and breezes, exotic food and new sites, new clothes and abundant hospiltality. Before California becomes home it can become a wonderful destination. I pray that my children will travel well. Think of us and pray and dream big.
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Man, thanks Katie. Dream big. God big. I needed that reminder right now.
Many tears shed over our move away from y'all. Many many.
Posted by: lynnp at May 23, 2006 11:07 PM
