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June 9, 2006
the Patience to Live
I love my boy, he gives me so much joy. These pool/water photos are so beautiful to me. Josiah has been so difficult the past few days. So exhausting. Constantly whining, not responding to discipline, being constantly antagonizing to his sister. Not being loving, kind or fair to Eden. Fussing, fussing, fussing. Bossing me around. I have been brought to the edge of decent humanity by my son this past week. I'm sure I have said things and done things that I hope I never do again. I have been completely at a loss. Words that John Worrell said are ringing in my ears "terrible twos are nothing, it's three that's hard". I'm feeling that now. I'm hoping that it's just because we haven't been getting to bed on time for a few days straight. So tonight they will both be asleep by 8:30.
After a day with the Jenkins , the kids konk out by the Northside Dr exit.
With any job you have ups and downs. My job is very important. My downs bring me down because this little person depends on me for everything. I have to teach him and help him learn to love. I have to equally give Eden the respect she deserves when she is wronged yet I also have to put out the fire of Josiah being a raving, crazy, frothing, temper tantrum storm. Sometimes in the middle of the grocery store. *sigh* It's so easy to be selfish and not explain why to Josiah every time. But it's important to explain, to tell Josiah what was done wrong. He wants hugs everytime he gets disciplined but I get conservative with them. I now ask him for an apology before I give him a hug. I hate that. I am battling sin, my little boy's sin and more so, MY sin. I once again groan not because my child is a bad kid, but because the world is a hard place to live.
with our favorite librarian Mrs. Jacobs
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Ah, Librarians. I have been in love with at least three but they were each at least fifteen to thirty years older than I when I was less than 10 years old. But each of these women left with a love for books. I wish I knew where they were today. The Secret World Of Og was from the first librarian I loved. I was in Kindergarten.
Keep loving books and kids and keep taking both of them out to enjoy the air.
Owen
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Posted by: Owen at June 15, 2006 3:51 PM
oh, your josiah-- he's such a cool kid. those photos are gorgeous. I hear you, I'm about to enter an incredibly challenging place with ezra (ha, we're already there).
you're a great mama and he's a great kid. my prayers are with you, my friend.
(wow, so great to finally meet y'all in person! hope we didn't wear you out...?) :)
Posted by: andrea at June 15, 2006 12:00 AM
This is SO my life right now. It's nice to hear that I'm not the only one struggling with these issues. Your description of the grocery store battles and hugs after a scolding sound like you've seen us out! Three-year-olds are so interesting because they are like little sponges absorbing so much good - and with it comes the bad. One minute I'll be astounded at D.'s etiquette (saying, "Excuse us" just like I do when we're squeezing by someone) and the next wondering just WHAT is he thinking (as he slaps a woman on her bum while standing in line!) Oh but I STILL wouldn't trade it for anything!
Posted by: Laurie at June 10, 2006 9:05 AM
Thanks, Katie. It's so hard to meet the needs of all the kids. The more I parent the more grateful I am for God's grace.
Gid looked at the throwing water pictures and said, "I should go way over there and play with him in his pool." Too far. *sigh* We miss you guys.
Posted by: lynnp at June 9, 2006 7:18 PM
