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September 25, 2006
seeing in the dark
These lovely birds were at the North GA State Fair. We had to stroll the stroller past all the rides and huge stoopid stuffed animals to find real living animals to pet and feed and generally be thankful for how creative God is. Camels and emus can't help but make you laugh and think that God must be a pretty funny guy to hang out with.
On Thursday afternoon, after our weekly High we went to Chattanooga because I was going to interview Friday morning for the gallery assistant job at AVA. The interview went well. My strengths were strong and my weaknesses well, they're week. I told them that if they wanted to hire me I would do whatever I could to be at work....tommorow if they need me (gulp). I know that sounds crazy. I mean, Kate are you going to commute to Chattanooga every day? And who will watch your children while you are at your at your part time job? It sounds crazy to me to. But I thought it through and what is faith? Is faith seeing the add for the job and just sitting back and hoping everything lines up for you to even apply for the job? Or is faith applying for the job, getting an interview and then getting the call to come in and then believing that God will guide hearts and circumstances to work it's way out. This job is the one I've been wanting my whole working career. Now I have two beautiful kids an I hate to think of someone else parenting them all day long just so I can have my prance throught the cool working artists realm. How can I ignore it though? For the past 5 years I've become more and more aware of God's purpose for me in the artworld, and if He wants me to have this job I have to take each step across this raging river one stone at a time. If they call and I have no answer for how I will relocate, maybe I will have to turn them down. If they really want me than we will make it work? God has done much bigger things than this. Even though I am full of doubt and (yes I admit it) fear, I have to believe that each step is worth it.
Then Joel read this last night. So Allied Arts is paying artists to move to Chattanooga. They pay relocation costs? They pay you 15K? They're cool with part-time working artists? It just kept sounding better. So will I read through this application and fill it out? Why yes!! Joel's mindset is "Hmmmm, does this program work other places??"
One of my first thoughts is, "I'm not good enough, they'll see through my artwork and decide it's not great enough to give me all these benefits." My second thought is,"This process will take forever and they won't be ready to set me up in the program for 6months or longer." These are the thoughts that address my faith.
We've been going to Trinity Vineyard these past few weeks and feel really good there. Kris McDaniel speaks with great understanding and cultural relevance, relevance to Atlanta! Most importantly he speaks from the Bible and speaks truth. It's challenging. He's been going through Mark and yesterday he spoke on the blind man of Bethsaida. At first Jesus touches his eyes and he doesn't see clearly, then Jesus touches him again an he has 100% of his vision. I want to see clearly who Jesus is in every place in my life whether it's bright or dark. I need to trust Him and try every opportunity. Fear has been rearing it's ugly head, and the way to fight it is to keep working and leaping in faith. I can't say I'm not nervous, stressed and sleepless sometimes. Right now I'm dog-sick. But I have to keep working. I have to speak positivity into my family, especially when talking with Joel. He needs a boost everyday.
If you think of us pray that we will have continued stamina. That God will sell our house in less than a month (we shoot high first!!). That God will provide the perfect job for Joel. That I will be able to breathe and talk soon. It's hard to scold when your voice is gone. There only so much scary glaring you can do. Thank you my friends!!
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prayers are sent down your way frequently. i am so blessed to be a witness of your beautiful life. i love you.
Posted by: with you in heart at September 28, 2006 9:27 AM
