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January 5, 2007
Josiah's photos
Yes my son took these pictures and I am so proud. I didn't really look at them very closely through the view finder right after he took them, but when I loaded then a little while ago I was so impressed! The one of Marcos Counts is so simple and telling of his surroundings. And can you believe the sweet face he got out of his sister! I wish I could just freeze that face these days. Eden has been a clingy little grump lately. Cat taught Josiah how to hold her camera and push the right button. I admit that Josiah and I do not have a lot of patience with each other for me to have sat down and showed him how to be gentle and take pictures with my camera. But when he took these I knew he was holding it correctly, he was using it with respect and I was dying of curiosity to see what he would photograph. He kept saying, "I'm going to take a picture of Eden!" And he took about 5. This is the best one, most of them were in focus thanks to the daylight.
Thanks, oh blog friends, for your encouragement. I have been feeling very discouraged in many ways these days. Not that I'm going to go into it all, but it has effected the length of my posts and what time of night I write them. I am bummed about 4 Bridges, but it's not the end. I have already begun other plans of attack. My two biggest fans (Joel and Cat) both have the same idea of a renegade show that runs the same time as 4 Bridges. I think that would be fun. No need to be hostile, just intentional. We need to find a space and book it now, that would be the first thing. I'm trying to produce art through my heavy gloom and will post pics soon. I will ask though my blog community that if you think of us, pray for Joel's job. He's employed and doing fine, but he is so talented and waiting a whole year before being able to apply for new internal positions is torture. I believe that Joel will find favor anywhere he works. His employers love him, his managers trust him and ask his advice. Joel is a wonderful asset wherever he goes. Although there is a very slim chance that he would be considered for a higher paying internal position after working for BCBST for only a month and a half, God is all about slim chances. He worked an employment miracle for us in the past, He can do it again and again. I feel I have not been faithful in prayer. My wellspring of faith is very low these days. But I know that God is so faithful even when we are weak. I have been reading Proverbs to just remind myself that wisdom is something I strive for and hope that it is one of my strongest attributes. My spirit battles daily with my role as wife and mother. Trying to wrap my head around the hard work that will come because of Joels 35% pay cut, starting from scratch. Pushing me out of the nest into the working world has become a constant frustration to Joel. I thought I was a team player but my insides are upside down with worries. My children revolt when I leave them with a sitter all day. The idea of waiting tables late into the night or working very very early in the morning just plum scares me. These things are hard to admit, but I feel it's time to get it out there. I am a weak, selfish person. Unwilling to change. I am prideful about my roles in this world. I am praying for humility and/or conformation of what my spirit feel so strongly. Ok, thanks for reading all of that.
On the up-side, I will begin tutoring Cara English on Tuesday. I'll be using Mona Brookes Drawing for Older Children and Teens. I've got a supply list ready and I hope that my kids will sleep nicely through our lesson since my folks will be in Philly all next week. Next week is looking like a bear. Lots to do...
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Katie, I don't know if it makes you feel any better, but you're not alone. I hit a major low this week... discouragement, despair, guilt, frustration with myself. It's really hard to explain, but the gyst of it is that I'm way too concerned with what other people think of me, and I need to remind myself that I'm a fool, dependent on an infinitely wise God.
So, that may not relate, but thank you for sharing your struggle this week. It's helping me put words to mine.
Posted by: Karen Monahan at January 8, 2007 8:09 PM
((hugs)) and prayers on the way from PA. I know all too well the need for humility and needing to step out of that comfort spot. You KNOW God is with you and He will make sure you get what you need.
I thiink the idea of a renegade show to coexist with 4 Bridges is a wonderful idea. Chattanooga is all about bringing creativity to the area...run with it baby!
Posted by: Mim at January 6, 2007 10:52 PM
